I stood near the floodlights stared straight at them. I stared at them like a child would a birthday cake, like a criminal would his victim, like a lover would his swain. I wanted to ruin my eyes. I wanted to watch those little glowing dots dance when I close my eyes.
I wanted to go blind. I wanted to burn in that light.
I stared into the light to enjoy the darkness beyond… then I realized that light doesn’t kill. Night – the only guarantee of complete darkness in nature – is still bathed in it.
To embrace darkness is to embrace light. There is no escaping the glow.