December 31, 2007
As much as you say how much I have been part of your life, I would like to take this opportunity to tell you how much you have been a part of mine.
In the three years that I’ve sat here to write, I always think of you. You who come here regularly – some of you every day – to end your day on a better note. I’ve heard some of your stories over the years. There was one who got an administrative notice for wiring a proxy server to read what I have to write. There was one who, after splitting up from her boyfriend, looked here to find some words of inspiration. There are many others: a poignant one being that of the OFW who comes here every so often to read stories from home while talking to her family on a webcam.
It hits me – hard – to think about the responsibility that has weighed down on my shoulders for these past three years that this blog is no longer just “mine,” but also yours as well. Every so often, I think about the word “I,” and am tempted to replace it with “we.” After all, every time I write about a “unique experience,” everyone else experiences it. You, more than anyone else, experiences it.
I enjoy – and continue to enjoy – writing. Not because it’s therapeutic or anything, but because you make all this effort worthwhile. And in 2008, you will most probably come back here and read what I have to say and end your days in a better note.
From the get-go, there were always naysayers who told me that I would never amount to anything, that my writing style sucks, and that anyone can do what I do – even better. I paid heed to those words, knowing that I can prove them wrong. Needless to say, I didn’t: you proved them wrong. You stayed here and you took me on. You stayed. When I felt left out knowing that the only thing I did for 11 years – campus journalism – was taken away from me because they didn’t think I belonged or I deserved it, you took me in.
I do not know how to pay you guys back, knowing that what you did for the past three years cost you a lot. But if anything, the only thing I can think about right now for all these years of you staying is for me to stay.
All I’m saying is thank you. Thank you for the support, the kindness, and the confidence. Thank you.
Best regards for the New Year,